Today I had my weekly therapy session and realized that this past Saturday, September 22, 2012 marks 1 year since I came out to my dad. Thats wild to me! I can't believe I've been out for a year. I never thought I was ever going to come out to anyone. Although its been one hell of a rough year, I can honestly say that I am in a better place today then I was. I am finally beginning to see my life more clearly. I finally feel like I am starting explore the idea of what it will be like to live my life with another man. It feels more natural. This past summer has been a huge transition period for me in so many ways that I can't really pin-point what, but I just feel different. Good different.
I had my ups and downs but I am definitely gaining more confidence. Confidence not only in the gay part of myself, but in the whole of who I am. It feels madd fuckin good. I wanna give a huge thanks to everyone who supports this blog, followers and those just stopping by to check it out. Specifically I want to thank the dudes who I have kept in touch with through email - you guys are fuckin awesome and without the support, I wouldn't be where I am today.
Check out this song, I'm sure some of you have heard it, but it pretty much describes how I'm feeling about my life right now. My taste in music has always surprised my friends and family, but I honestly like all kinds and this song is hands down one of my favorites so enjoy.
Peace dudes.
It's good to hear you see evolution in your life and you're happy you've already come that far. To be happy it's not the image others have of you that makes the biggest part, but how you see yourself. You've still a way to go (but who doesn't?) - in your case by coming out and accepting yourself - but I'm sure you'll make it.
ReplyDeleteLet's enjoy our newfind confidence and live life buddy!
Thanks dude! I for sure still have a ways to go, but I'm definitely feeling a little closer to it all. I know there will be more ups and downs, that's life. I'm anxious/nervous about the next step (don't know if I'm there yet), but am working towards coming out to more friends and family. Not sure when that will be though, I'm just glad my mind is able to handle the thought haha.
DeleteSweet post. You need to know to that for me, and I suspect a bunch of others like me, who realized what we were all about in a different time, reading your blog and others like it is a wonderful form of therapy. We learned to cope with being gay in a very different way; certainly bad for our mental health, though probably better for our physical wellbeing, but it makes me feel really good to read about men of this generation who to have the guts to stand up for themselves and what they are. It certainly isn't easy; hellish is probably a better descriptor but even with the proverbial two steps back for every step forward, you and others have made incredible progress in sorting out your lives. I am forever grateful to you and your fellow bloggers for allowing us us to share the coming out experience at least vicariously rather than not at all. Thank you
ReplyDeleteWow man, really appreciate this comment. I still can't believe it's real, you know, that I'm writing on this blog and meeting other bloggers through doing this. Life has been pretty surreal for me lately, I never thought I would be out. Reading words you just wrote makes the shit I've gone through that much more worth it all. Thanks dude!
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